Mom,
Today marks three months since you left us, and the pain of your absence still feels overwhelming. I know you’re watching over us. You are protecting us from afar. The ache of not being able of hugging you is unbearable. Not being able to talk to you is unbearable. Not being able to laugh with you is unbearable. Not being able to travel alongside you is unbearable. There are so many things we were meant to do together, and now, they will remain incomplete.
I never imagined living a life without you. I prayed for your long life, even if it meant mine be shorter. People often say, “God calls the good ones early,” but I didn’t believe it until you were gone. The true meaning of friendship, for me, started with you. The parts of me that are wild and crazy are gifts from you. The sarcasm, the patience, and tolerance are your gifts too. You always believed in the goodness of people, and that’s something I hope to inherit. You would go to any lengths to protect the ones you loved. That level of selflessness is something I’ll always admire.
You were not just my mom, you were a teacher to everyone who met you. No one that met you would not be struck by your caring and beautiful soul. I feel so proud every time I breathe because, “I am your daughter.” We fought often, but you knew that was my love language. Life and death are part of reality, but in our hearts, we believed you were immortal. Someone in the family said, “You were the tree that held us all together, protecting us with its branches and standing strong to give shelter on sunny and stormy days.” We miss you every day. Although we can still feel your presence, it hurts to realize – We can’t just pick up the phone and hear your advice.
Perhaps you were too innocent for this world, too selfless, and too kind. The world is cruel. I take comfort in knowing that the pain and suffering you endured here are finally over. I remember how you never hesitated to help anyone in need, never once thinking of the consequences. If I become even a fraction of who you were — if I start to care for people the way you did — I would consider myself accomplished.
Life isn’t the same without you. I feel lost, and sometimes I don’t know who to turn to when things get tough. You were my strength, the one I looked up to when everything felt uncertain.
This letter can never fully express what you mean to me but know that you are celebrated every single day. We know you’re shining bright, guiding and protecting us. We pray to you now, hoping that you can still hear us, hoping that things happen for a reason. Life feels uncertain, but knowing you’re still protecting us gives us strength.
Thank you for everything — for your sacrifices, for your unconditional love. Thank you for being proud of me, even when I know I let you down at times. I’m forever grateful that before you left, you let me know I was your precious one.
You will always be loved, no matter where you are. Your beauty, your smile, and your sparkling eyes will always be cherished. Your hugs, your food, and the warmth of your presence will always be cherished. Please keep guiding us as we strive to fulfill your dreams. Push us toward our goals. Lead us down the path of becoming as kind and selfless as you.
Lastly, thank you for giving us the strength to fight for you and making sure your children have no regrets. Keep visiting me in my dreams, keep bringing happiness to my life, and stay a part of all my achievements. I would never have left you, but I know you had to leave us, and I understand that.
Sending you hugs until we meet again. I love you so much, Ma.
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